2 years ago I posted a video marking my last night with CF lungs. To keep with the theme of posting a video the night before my transplant date, I created the following video to share a visual of what has happened since then.
Saturday, December 14, 2013
Thursday, December 12, 2013
My Boyfriend
So after six years of an "on again/off again" relationship, my boyfriend and I are splitting up. It's relatively mutual in that we both have learned all we can from one another, however I feel that he wants to leave me more than I want to leave him. I definitely am not ready for us to go our separate ways.
We started our relationship in 2007 and were going strong for a year when I broke up with him in order improve my own person. I needed to be a better individual for myself and for him; I could only make these improvements with time alone. This break lasted for two years and then we finally got back together. It was so nice to be back with each other, it just felt right. After a year of going strong, sadly I broke up with him yet again because I realized I hadn't quite become the person I thought was good enough to make the relationship work successfully. But after a year apart and having worked on improving myself, I came running back to him. This time we have been going strong for a year and a half, but sadly the relationship has run its course; it is time to go our separate ways. We both have left our mark on one another, but these relationships can only last so long.
Now if you are utterly confused, you should be. For those of you who know me well there has never been mention of said boyfriend, so how in the world did I hide this relationship so well. Well, that's because this relationship isn't actually with a person, it's with my theoretical boyfriend, "Biola University."
I was talking with some fabulous friends a few days ago and we talked about how for some of us school takes the time and place of a boyfriend. The time spent on getting to know one another and learning from each other that occurs in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship, has been spent in school. I feel that I have been so dedicated to school over the past years, or dedicated to getting back to it, that school in a sense has been the focal relationship in my life (other than my relationship with God of course).
With graduation taking place next week, I have been having a whiplash of emotions. Sometimes I get so excited about what is on the other side of that stage, and other times I think about the great people I will miss, as well as the great environment of Biola. Sometimes the thought of graduating is utterly heartbreaking, and other times it utterly exhilarating.
All this to say that my boyfriend is breaking up with me and I am going to miss him dearly.
(cheers to building new relationships and savoring the memories of the old ones)
We started our relationship in 2007 and were going strong for a year when I broke up with him in order improve my own person. I needed to be a better individual for myself and for him; I could only make these improvements with time alone. This break lasted for two years and then we finally got back together. It was so nice to be back with each other, it just felt right. After a year of going strong, sadly I broke up with him yet again because I realized I hadn't quite become the person I thought was good enough to make the relationship work successfully. But after a year apart and having worked on improving myself, I came running back to him. This time we have been going strong for a year and a half, but sadly the relationship has run its course; it is time to go our separate ways. We both have left our mark on one another, but these relationships can only last so long.
Now if you are utterly confused, you should be. For those of you who know me well there has never been mention of said boyfriend, so how in the world did I hide this relationship so well. Well, that's because this relationship isn't actually with a person, it's with my theoretical boyfriend, "Biola University."
I was talking with some fabulous friends a few days ago and we talked about how for some of us school takes the time and place of a boyfriend. The time spent on getting to know one another and learning from each other that occurs in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship, has been spent in school. I feel that I have been so dedicated to school over the past years, or dedicated to getting back to it, that school in a sense has been the focal relationship in my life (other than my relationship with God of course).
With graduation taking place next week, I have been having a whiplash of emotions. Sometimes I get so excited about what is on the other side of that stage, and other times I think about the great people I will miss, as well as the great environment of Biola. Sometimes the thought of graduating is utterly heartbreaking, and other times it utterly exhilarating.
All this to say that my boyfriend is breaking up with me and I am going to miss him dearly.
(cheers to building new relationships and savoring the memories of the old ones)
Sunday, December 1, 2013
Thankful
Yes, it is December 1st, but I never posted about what I am thankful for in November, so here it is.
There is so much to be thankful for this year, I thought I would just list a few...
(cheers to another year full of things to be thankful for)
There is so much to be thankful for this year, I thought I would just list a few...
- great company - I am so thankful for family. I am thankful for the support that we give one another, the love that we have for one another, and the willingness to hear each others opinions (even if we don't agree). I am so thankful for friends. I am thankful for the open communication we have with one another, the support we give one another, and the prayer we offer one another.
- great health - I am thankful for the grace God has shown me over the past year and the good health he has blessed me with.
- great education - I am thankful to be graduating from college this semester and all that awaits me on the other side of that platform.
(cheers to another year full of things to be thankful for)
Thursday, November 14, 2013
Graduate School
A little background: In high school I dreamed of becoming a lawyer. Later I decided that I did not want to spend the time needed in school to make this dream a reality. I thought that all the years it would take to obtain my law degree would not be worth it in the end. To be honest, I also thought that I wouldn't be able to utilize my degree because of my health.
I have been set against continuing my education after completing my undergraduate degree for quite some time, that is until recently.
After thoroughly enjoying my communication studies classes at Biola, and doing well after the lung transplant, I have decided to further my education. I feel what God is calling me to do in the future requires higher education and further in-depth study.
What does this mean?
Well, as of now, I am beginning the journey of searching for the graduate school and graduate program that would best prepare me for my future. There are so many questions I am asking myself...
- in state or out of state
- full-time or part-time (I will also need to be working, so I need to find a balance)
- where will I work and what insurance do they offer (insurance is definitely important)
...okay, maybe there aren't that many questions...but this also means that I will have to begin studying to take the GRE test (graduate school version of the SAT), and I will also need to begin applying to these schools.
I have been asking God about what he has planned for me after graduation in December, and I feel that this is part of what he is calling me to. He has given me such a peace, as well as excitement, in regards to making this decision. I continue to pray that he will open the doors to the school he would have me attend.
(cheers to finding the right school and graduate program)
I have been set against continuing my education after completing my undergraduate degree for quite some time, that is until recently.
After thoroughly enjoying my communication studies classes at Biola, and doing well after the lung transplant, I have decided to further my education. I feel what God is calling me to do in the future requires higher education and further in-depth study.
What does this mean?
Well, as of now, I am beginning the journey of searching for the graduate school and graduate program that would best prepare me for my future. There are so many questions I am asking myself...
- in state or out of state
- full-time or part-time (I will also need to be working, so I need to find a balance)
- where will I work and what insurance do they offer (insurance is definitely important)
...okay, maybe there aren't that many questions...but this also means that I will have to begin studying to take the GRE test (graduate school version of the SAT), and I will also need to begin applying to these schools.
I have been asking God about what he has planned for me after graduation in December, and I feel that this is part of what he is calling me to. He has given me such a peace, as well as excitement, in regards to making this decision. I continue to pray that he will open the doors to the school he would have me attend.
(cheers to finding the right school and graduate program)
Monday, October 28, 2013
Soaking Up Every Moment
As the weeks fly by I become more aware that I will be graduating in less than two months. Graduation pictures have been taken, invitations ordered, and my cap and gown have been picked up. I still don't have a set plan for what I am doing after graduation (other than an excited trip with a fellow graduate) and that is scary. I have always been one to plan (even at times when my health didn't allow it). If I was going to be attending school next semester I would already have my classes picked out and preparing to register for them, but that's not the case. I know that God has a plan for my life after graduation and I have to wait for it to all unfold, but I would love to get a sneak peak.
I am soaking in every moment here at Biola, enjoying my classes and all of the friends I have made. It makes me sad thinking that I won't be running into all of these friendly faces next semester. Who knows maybe I'll find a job at Biola and won't ever have to leave!
One things for sure, I have had an amazing experience at Biola; I have had professors that have made a lasting impression on my life, and have made some lasting friendships that I deeply cherish.
52 more days (including weekends) to soak up as much 'Biola' as I possibly can.
(cheers to achieving something on my "pre-transplant bucket list" - graduating from college)
I am soaking in every moment here at Biola, enjoying my classes and all of the friends I have made. It makes me sad thinking that I won't be running into all of these friendly faces next semester. Who knows maybe I'll find a job at Biola and won't ever have to leave!
One things for sure, I have had an amazing experience at Biola; I have had professors that have made a lasting impression on my life, and have made some lasting friendships that I deeply cherish.
52 more days (including weekends) to soak up as much 'Biola' as I possibly can.
(cheers to achieving something on my "pre-transplant bucket list" - graduating from college)
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