My Boyfriend

So after six years of an "on again/off again" relationship, my boyfriend and I are splitting up. It's relatively mutual in that we both have learned all we can from one another, however I feel that he wants to leave me more than I want to leave him. I definitely am not ready for us to go our separate ways.

We started our relationship in 2007 and were going strong for a year when I broke up with him in order improve my own person. I needed to be a better individual for myself and for him; I could only make these improvements with time alone. This break lasted for two years and then we finally got back together. It was so nice to be back with each other, it just felt right. After a year of going strong, sadly I broke up with him yet again because I realized I hadn't quite become the person I thought was good enough to make the relationship work successfully. But after a year apart and having worked on improving myself, I came running back to him. This time we have been going strong for a year and a half, but sadly the relationship has run its course; it is time to go our separate ways. We both have left our mark on one another, but these relationships can only last so long.

Now if you are utterly confused, you should be. For those of you who know me well there has never been mention of said boyfriend, so how in the world did I hide this relationship so well. Well, that's because this relationship isn't actually with a person, it's with my theoretical boyfriend, "Biola University."

I was talking with some fabulous friends a few days ago and we talked about how for some of us school takes the time and place of a boyfriend. The time spent on getting to know one another and learning from each other that occurs in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship, has been spent in school. I feel that I have been so dedicated to school over the past years, or dedicated to getting back to it, that school in a sense has been the focal relationship in my life (other than my relationship with God of course).

With graduation taking place next week, I have been having a whiplash of emotions. Sometimes I get so excited about what is on the other side of that stage, and other times I think about the great people I will miss, as well as the great environment of Biola. Sometimes the thought of graduating is utterly heartbreaking, and other times it utterly exhilarating.

All this to say that my boyfriend is breaking up with me and I am going to miss him dearly.

(cheers to building new relationships and savoring the memories of the old ones)